my dream, sad

I had a very vivid dream last night, which I still somewhat remember. I was in church; I go to my husbands church, but I am not sure it was actually his church. I just remember it being a church. I was holding an extreamly cute blonde little girl, with curly hair. We did nothing but play through church, I would pick her up and make her laugh, hold her and hug her. The last thing that I remember, because as we all know dreams can start to fade after you wake up, is that I was going to change her into a cute little red dress which some other people in church had decided over the white dress. Thats it..........then I woke up.

Yesterday

Have you ever felt as though your body just gave out for a day? Not a nervous breakdown, your body just would not cooperate with what your mind was thinking. Yesterday was that day for me.

Tuesday, a little before lunch (which is usually 11ish) I suddenly felt weak. Still able to walk, not terribly well, but mobile enough to make a straight line. I needed to load gel of samples before lunch so it was going to get done. I started feeling shakey, not quite sure if I was actually shaking, but I felt as though I was.

At this point I got quiet, didn't feel like conversing, trying just to focus on something. This was an intereting expierence because my brain was thinking quickly, actually too many things at once so I was focusing on anything and my body was more or less slow motion. I went back into the lab ready for lunch at this point and Leonie (my co-worker) noticed that I wasn't myself. We both thought that food would probably help so we went to the lunch room to eat.

I ate what I could thinking it would help me get back to what I could do and needed to do that day. Food really didn't help how I was feeling. I was feeling sick, the food settled well, not nauseous. My body still just did not want to work. Still in the lunch room, contiuning to feel a little shakey and now a little dizzy, I just sat for a while to try and wait these feelings away. Finally we needed to get back to work, so I slowly go up from my seat and walked out into the hall and back to the lab. All I needed to do was a PCR and take a picture of the gel that I had loaded before lunch. Leonie and I agreed that if I was still feeling this way after I was done with my work then I would take a couple of sick hours and just go home.

I finished what I needed to by 2pm told my boss and drove home. Just so you know I was no longer dizzy driving home, nor as shakey so I do not believe I endangered anyone, and got home safely. I went on the couch and watched TV for a little bit and eventually fell asleep.

where were we??

The long and tedious drive from the house in Wausau to the cabin somewhere else took about three hours. You know that feeling when you are tired, but can't for some reason sleep. Whether it be family or work, you just shouldn't sleep......

As soon as we pulled up to the also obscurely located cabin, as their house took 20+ turns to get to, we saw what I knew was their puppy but looked like a baby horse running toward us. I had always called their dog Roque (rock) a puppy because he is only about 7 mo. old, but to negate the fact that he is a puppy he is also a grate dane!! Therefore, he doesn't realize how big he acutally is; with his huge paws flopping in and out while he is running toward us, and of course trying to jump on us. The jumping I didn't mind as much as the very sharp claws in the eyes.

As we start to settle in and take our showers, my brother and I think we have some peace to ourselves and time to finally relax. Naturally, fate thinks otherwise, the door opens and in come our grandparents. To give you an idea behind our reaction, we love our grandparents. They would do anything and everything we would ask them to if we needed help. However, the past dictates they have tried to behave more as our parents then our grandparents. Which, of course my brother and I have not taken to.

To lay down a little foundation, my grandfater went to Purdue and is very proud of that fact. They are unhappy and confused at the reality of my brother who doesn't want to be forced into school. They also don't understand that I don't want to get a Ph.D., I would rather go to Genetic Counseling. So.....with this in mind we go back to the original story.

It probably took about the maxium time of 5 min. for grandma to ask me "so.....are you taking any classes to get ready for grad school yet?" switching between looking at me and looking at the counter in fromt of her. Giving her my answer of no basically she turns her questioning to my brother...........

things contiuned......

OK, so we finally make it to Wausau, WI. However, my brother and I aren't completly tired yet and our momma is waiting there for us giving us directions over the phone....... her house is in a very obsure part of town. So, after finding out they have brownies in the kitchen; I partake in the complete sublime feeling of chocolate and watch a couple episodes of Furtama with them.

Unknowningly, the next morning at 6:30ish (7:30 real-time), we start to wake up, because we need to leave early to get to the cabin. After sublime brownies and minimal sleep we piled in the car where I tried to subject everyone to Broadway music, but it all seemed just way too slow for road (mental note, broadway fun at work, not good road music). Luckily my brother had some good CD's and we popped a couple of thoes in.

many, many things

I am back from a very eventful week! I left for WI on Tuesday night. Of course there had to be a horrible downpour on the drive up there, because it couldn't be easy for my brother and I just to drive in dry weather at 10pm at night completely lost. So, we pulled off the road somewhere in the vacinity of Madison with only a small speck of light from the semi in front of us and waves of rain coming down on us. (Thank goodness I wasn't driving, but that didn't refrain me from freaking out)

After the rain died down and many emergency vehicles passed we started thinking about either driving or finding a hotel and finishing the drive in the morning.........The rain decided to all but stop, and we decided to just finish driving. Of course getting out of the exit back onto the highway was a lot more difficult than we though. Apparently, there was no easy way. After about 10min. of going over the bridge where the on ramp should have been we took a road out of town onto another highway, which then ramped onto the highway we actually wanted to be on. Naturally at 10:30 ( 11:30 real time ) this is really funny to me, but then again I wasn't driving............


Keep in mind this is only the first night of vacation.......I just don't have time to finish at the moment

Yeah short weeks

I only have to work for two days this week....Monday and Tuesday!!!! Tuesday I am going to WI with my brother to see our momma, whom I haven't seen in months. So, obviously I am excited!!!

I have tried to convince myself to stop trying to have a baby and just let it happen, but that doesn't stop me from thinking about it and doing research on-line about what I can. I still think the universe is just waiting for Erica and I to get pregnant at the same time. And since I haven't heard anything from her, I am going to assume that she isn't yet either. We will just have to keep trying sweetie!!!!!

I did manage to spend about $25 for some new jeans......haven't found any fun or boob shirtst to buy. However, I am disheartened by a recent picture of myself in the fun new dress I bought, I didn't like it........I don't know we will see if I will still buy more fun clothing or not. Either way, I like the way I feel in that dress, so I am going to wear it.

FRIDAY!!

So happy it is friday.....all I have to do at work today is run a gel, my sequences are not back yet.....and as always whatever ordering I need to do

Well.....from the comments, apparently I need to buy some boob shirts this weekend!! We shall see, I want to buy a couple pair of pants, and I find boob shirts I like then I will get them. I also need to make my appointment for "my day" at Christinas for a manicure, pedicure and eyebrow wax.

Not much else to say, nothing special planned for this weekend that I can think of.....

trying to finish work

Wednesday........middle of the week day....

Watching Courtney play games. Just got back from lunch......ate way too much.

I have been thinking, how should I spend my birthday money?!? So many wonderous things that I could spend and buy. However, my recent dress shopping made me realize I would like to re-vamp my wardrobe!! This money would give me a good start to what I want.

Let me know what you guys think.....

Monday again

This weekend went well, the wedding was beautiful, minus the rain. One wedding down, two more this summer to go.... Hopefully this week will go quickly. This weekend will be a continuation of Preston and I's first anniversy!!! Saturday consisted of lingerie at home along with dinner and a movie.....it was so much fun!!!! Maybe next weekend a hotel and hopefully Cheesecake Factory cheesecake......since I have never had it before.

Not much going on at work....normal activity, just trying to get everything organized and finished when it needs to be. Not much else to tell........

loose ends before the weekend

I always enjoy the final minute of a day of work on a Friday. Something about two days of not being there makes me smile instantly. Don't get me wrong, I love the people I work with Court, Theresa, Heather.........it is just fun to not have to work for two days.

There are just a couple more things I need to do before I leave. Take a picture of my gel, organize all of my project and get them ready for lab meeting on Monday, try and clean off my desk, post gels = clean off computer desktop, and do a huge amount of ordering for people.

hummm

Thursday has come and is going quickly. There is a strange smell in the lab today, like opened sharpie marker, but has remained here for several hours. I have a gel to run and another PCR to do. After that I have sequence analysis to finish up.

The AC guy is coming again to patch up the leak he found last week. This just hasn't been our most productive week for us. The AC getting fixed is enough amount of money, but we have a wedding to go to this week, my birthday and fathers' day was last weekend. And.....our first anniversy is this coming weekend. I know that we can handle it but I feel guilty shopping for some things that I want, espically since the VS semi-annual sale has started!!! hahaha